AmyB: Food For Thought

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly of AmyB WOE

Considering The Source May 20, 2008

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 11:06 pm

 

 

 

 

I have been asked by Boo to retract my blog comment that she is back at KK.  I have been told by two people that she is back at KK.  But since I am not there and can not see for myself.  I will say that I am not there and I do not know this for myself.  I have always tried to be fair with what I blog about. Until I get the proof I can share , I will retract that she is back. So Boo I hope this helps you feel better. I guess for me the blog was not about you being at KK but another issue at hand.

 

I have been thinking for a few days how to deal with the anger over Heidi Diaz’s latest attack. I had thought about letting it go.  I have thought about jumping on a plan and knocking on her door.  I decided to settle on this instead.

Some may wonder why I posted a picture of Philip on my blog.  First of all he is super handsome and I love to show him off.  Also Philip’s medical web page has tons of pictures of him.  And last…I have nothing to hide.  I dare say Heidi Diaz can not say the same. I want you to see just who you are trying to hurt .

This week Heidi lowered herself to a place that I did not think any mom would go.  As a mom I have to ask you Heidi..how do you look at yourself in the mirror each day.  Would you ever allow someone to do the same to your son?  Oh maybe you should not answer that.  You know the old saying..back a dog in a corner and they will  bite. Are you feeling some pressure Heidi?  I know court is not going so well for you.  Maybe the stress has finally caught up with you.  One thing you might want to remember Heidi.  You have a habit of getting sloppy when you are scared.  Your latest actions show you are getting scared.  I do not blame you.

You may feel like you have a battle to pick with me.  Fine, I have one to pick with you.  And I will win.  Are you sacred to handle things with me?  From day one you have brought my son in to your battle.  Do you really want to add slander and harassment to your legal issues. Just so you and your silly side kicks know…everything you put in the INTERNET is saved in one form or another.  You can not take it back.  You messed up.  Did you really think we would not figure out who crispy bread is?  You have gotten sloppy Heidi. 

Some quick background.  Heidi Diaz has been harassing my son for months.  She has a issue with me and must be afraid to handle things with me.  She has accused Philip of not being real, not being sick, and a way for me to make money.

Above you will see a picture of Philip and myself before he went off to the operating room back in March 2008.  Heidi took this opportunity to once again harass me.  She had one of her members  name Boo e-mail me and follow up with a phone call.  During this phone call…Heidi PM’d questions that she was suppose to ask me. The whole phone conversation Boo would ask questions about myself and Philip, as Heidi PM her.  When Boo told Heidi she would not be apart of bringing a child into her fight with me.  Heidi banned Boo.  It saddens me to now know Boo is once again at KK.

Many KK members have made rude comments to me to defend Heidi.  Such as IF Heidi really said this or that.  Each time they have been pointed to my blog comments.  Gary and Singinglass have been busy under fake names.   Being the cruel people they are…maybe it is best they stay alone and spend their time online. I dare say if they have no issue being involved with verbal child abuse…what else could they be involved in. 

A little background medical information about Philip.  When Philip was 6 weeks old he had his first brain operation.  Then at age 6 months he had  a 13 hr  brain operation that had life changing complications.  Philip suffered a stroke and 2 cardiac arrest.  He was blind for 17 days post op and we were told he would not survive.  He showed them. Philip has had a total of 15 Brian operations, 30 ortho stroke related operations and three life threatening infections.  Needless to say Philip is our miracle.

As  a mom …..imagine my anger to find that Heidi Diaz started a blog that is filled with slander and lies.  The blog suggest I have a mental disorder that causes me to fake Philip’s condition and caused him his medical issues now..for attention.  I am not even going to dignify that with a answer.  Heidi I got to thinking.  I am not sure this type of behavior is in your best interest.  The way I see it..a grown women who is being sued for running a fraud based diet web site is harassing a child who is fighting daily for his life.  I knew you could care less about anyone bu yourself…your depo answered that.  But as a mom…I thought you might have a little more heart.  Then again …your son has suggested otherwise.

For all of you KK people who have not wanted to see how low Heidi can go..take a look at her handy work.  For those who keep saying IF Heidi has involved Philip with her nasty remarks…Sue, Joy, etc.  Go read this.  Also go read the comments by Gary and Singinglass on my blog.  A little hint..theyt used fake names. Here is your example.  Do with it what you want.  But maybe you need to keep  your children far out of the reach of Heidi..who knows what she could end up doing.

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Munchausen’s By Proxy
May 14, 2008 · No CommentsWe are drawn by the many medicals claims, dissatisfactions, hypochondria and purported constant emergency hospital visits of the anti-Kimkins rally. Of note are Amy Briggs (amyb), Christin Sherburne, Elizabeth Winn (littlebit) and Trista Essex who states she failed at weight loss surgery. If you read their blogs and postings you might believe they live at the hospital for someone very near and dear to them is always at death’s door. Dr. Heigler provided a potential diagnosis of Munchausen syndrome, a common affliction of attention seeking persons who feel unimportant in life and “crying wolf” fills a chasm.Munchausen syndrome is a psychiatric disorder in which those affected fake disease, illness, or psychological trauma in order to draw attention or sympathy to themselves. It is in a class of disorders known as factitious disorders which involve “illnesses” whose symptoms are either self-induced or falsified by the patient. It is also sometimes known as hospital addiction syndrome. Craving attention, fighting depression, seeking well wishing and much fanfare these individuals create needless and harmful health emergencies for self fulfillment.In Munchausen syndrome, the affected person exaggerates or creates symptoms of illnesses in themselves in order to gain investigation, treatment, attention, sympathy, and comfort from medical personnel. In some extremes, people suffering from Munchausen’s Syndrome are highly knowledgeable about the practice of medicine, and are able to produce symptoms that result in multiple unnecessary operations. For example, they may inject a vein with infected material, causing widespread infection of unknown origin, and as a result cause lengthy and costly medical analyses and prolonged hospital stay. The role of “patient” is a familiar and comforting one, and it fills a psychological need in people with Munchausen’s. It is distinct from hypochondria in that patients with Munchausen syndrome are aware that they are exaggerating, while sufferers of hypochondria actually believe they have a disease. In many cases, this syndrome has been documented in the parent or guardian of a child, who assures his or her child of an affliction, therefore committing the child to spending a significant portion of their youth in hospitals.Furthermore, a disease may actually be initiated in the child by the parent or guardian. This, despite the mentality of the adult, is a serious form of child abuse.

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For those who have stood up and let Heidi and her bully admins and let them know that is is not okay or accepted .  Thank You.  It is nice to know some who are in the fight…are not willing to stand by and watch Heidi attack a kid for her own selfish reasons.

I am done playing games with you Heidi Diaz. Pick on someone your own size.

 

 

 

 

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Podcast link May 19, 2008

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 9:34 am

I did this podcast a few weeks after I got banned form KK.  I was still so numb and raw.  I think my podcast now might need to be censured.  Ha.  No matter where I go or end up after KK.  I will always reach out to ex KK ladies and I will always try to be a solid place to for them to fall.  I am a e-mail or PM away.

 

http://www.thelivinlowcarbshow.com/interview-amy-b-speaks-out-on-the-kimkins-debacle-episode-123/

 

 

 

Heidi Diaz…Can you take that back? May 16, 2008

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 9:47 am

 

Lately I find myself wondering how things turned out this way.  I am pretty sure Heidi wonders this also.  I can not help but thing this is not the way she thought things would turn out.  And to think she almost got away with it.  One problem Heidi has is…greed.  She takes what she wants, when she wants and how she wants.  But this time she took things too far. What she wanted was more money and fame.  She now has her money frozen and is pretty INTERNET famous for fraud.  I wonder if she ever thinks…Can I take that back.

I wonder if Heidi ever thinks of how she will get out of this.  For months she said the lawsuit would go no where.  She said it was a bunch of bored housewives.  Well I am not sure who it…but they have gotten the job done. I am pretty sure Heidi never thought things would end up like this.  But now that they did…what now?

I think Heidi should take a deep breathe and admit the truth.  She has been caught in enough lies that she has to be asked…Heidi how is this working for you. Not so good, huh?

I think if I were Heidi..I would re think my plan of action.  I would contact WW and see if they would do a cover story.  Heidi…I already did the cover for you.  You look good in red.  Different then your last cover story…but this is the REAL story.  We are going to do the truth.

Contact WW and see if they will let you do a story.  Meet with them. ( I mean face to face) and have them do a follow up KK story. Admit your lies and fraud.  Tell them how you are trying to make things better at KK for the health of the members ( AKA CYA for lawsuit).  Explain yourself .  I would love to hear the story.  But be careful..cause once it is in print you can not go back and say…Can I take that back.

Heidi..I know you must be tired of running.  Maybe you can stop running .  Think about a different aproach..before it is too late to take that back.

 

Giving Dee Some Room

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 7:18 am

I spent some time thinking last night . I have been reminded how long it took me to leave KK.  I have been reminded that I begged to go back after being banned.  I also have been reminded that I went back. All of that is true. I even wanted to go back after I got banned the second time.  I think I have told everyone all of that many times.  So it is fair play to use that with me now.

It is no secret that I have been very frustrated with Dee.  We have gone back and forth many times.  We have agreed to disagree on more then one occasion.

So how dare me push her to leave KK?  What gives me the Right to do that when it took me so long myself? Simple.  Do as I say not as I do.  LOL.

The difference is the way it was handled.  I never posted at LCF while at kk.    But umm…I did read.  ha.  I got called out many times at LCF while at KK.  Never did I come over and say what I was thinking about KK.  That is one thing I admire about Dee…she is blunt .

I guess I do not understand.  And really it is not for me to understand.  But when does that stop any of us?

Yes it took me way too long to leave KK.  In fact I did not leave…I was kicked out.  If I had not been…I might still be there.  Simple truth. Thank Goodness I got banned. I cringe to think the what if’s.

Dee came to LCF .  She was fired up and ready to fight.  Things calmed  down. Questions asked and answered.  Dee seemed pretty floored by what she had heard.  She made comments that I know would not make Heidi happy. As the KK front page lady and the KK newsletter lady.  I can not imagine Heidi would stand by and do nothing about all this.  Just a reminder that Heidi banned me for planning lunch with Jimmy Moore.

I think Dee knows my feelings about all this.  Right Dee?  We have talked in depth about all of it.  I  Know Dee knows the truth.  She has made it clear in her own words. So now she needs to figure out what she needs to do with this information.  I know she will do the right thing.

Maybe Heidi has gotten weak.  Maybe she is given up some of her fight.  I think maybe Heidi knows when she is beat at her own game. Heidi I think it is wonderful that you NEED Dee so much at your site that you are okay with all of this.

So Dee..if I was pushy with you about leaving.  I am sorry. I misunderstood what your plans were when you got the answers to your questions.

I am backing away and letting you figure out your own way.  I was only trying to help.  I have a feeling you will make the right choice.

 

 

What If? May 14, 2008

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 10:48 pm

Have you ever wondered what if? What if  things were different?  I know I have spent way too much time  thinking…what if I did this or that.  I know it is wasted angry …we can not go back in time. 

Lately I have been thinking about the whole KK mess.  I can not help but think Heidi might spend some time wondering ..this same question. What if she had not pushed it too far. 

We all agree that the KK drama started long ago..back in LCF days.  But for many it started when Heidi got greedy.  She went too far. I think she had told too many lies but wanted the money so bad..she got cocky and sloppy.  The first time I knew she was not half as smart as she wanted to think she was…when her pics were clearly of different people. 

I have a question I would like to ask some of you.  If you were standing in line at the store and saw this WW magazine cover.  Would you of still paid the $60 and joined the site?  Would you believe that the lady on the cover of this WW could know about dieting and nutrition  and health?  I have a feeling no. 

So it is fraud .  It is wrong.  It is illegal.  It is just plain wrong.

Why is it that Heidi will not show a current picture of herself.  I dare say once again she is hiding.

 

Life Has It’s Way May 13, 2008

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 11:09 pm

I have been doing so much thinking this week.  I have felt really frustrated and hurt this week.  I have had a mixture of feeling attacked and wanting to attack.  Is this who I want to be?  NO.  I have always felt like I am a good person.  I would never want to hurt anyone on purpose.  And yet if a person were to read about Amy B on the INTERNET …they might just get a different idea about who I am.

I never wanted to get involved in the whole KK issues.  I only wanted to lose weight.  Yes you heard those words from me.  At the time I only wanted to lose weight.  I also thought if I lost the weight..everything would be perfect.  Guess what…I set myself up for emotional failure. I placed too much value on the number on the scale.  I was willing to lose the weight and work on the other later.  Guess what..the later is here.  NOW.

Do I hate Heidi Diaz?  NO.  Not at all.  But I ask myself..if it is not hate then what is it?:  I guess you would call it ….maybe hurt.  I feel hurt by Heidi.  I believed her.  I thought she was the answer .  And then I felt like she abandoned me.  There I said it.  I thought Heidi was like us.  I thought she was the real deal. Now the truth is here with me every morning as I step on the dreaded scale..It is my battle.  I am  alone in this fight to health and being fit and thin.  And lately I feel like there are some people who want me to fail. 

Maybe I come across as weak.  And some days I feel worn down.  But I guess I would rather be weak and FEEL then hardened and NUMB.

So this week I have been listening to a wonderful CD and every time I hear these words ..it reminds me of all of US.  I wanted to share them with all of you.  We are going to all be stronger after this.  It is called life.

Words from Sister CD

These broken hearts will need some time

One day we will wake up and find

That life is hard, and pain is real

But the strongest hearts are not made of steel

They’re made of tenderness and trust

Sometimes life has its way with us

And we find it is the heartaches

Struggles and scars

That makes the strongest hearts

 

 

 

 

 

 

Amy B ….Rambles on

Filed under: Kimkins — amyb1569 @ 6:48 am

It is a new day and I am working on a new way.  Yes I can be a poet too.  Ha

I went to bed last night frustrated with non other then myself.  I had to have a self talk and figure out why I allowed myself to be dragged into a NO WAY TO WIN fight yesterday into the late night. Is this what I wanted my day to be about yesterday…NO.  Did I do anything to stop it..HECK NO.

I am not and will NOT back down from the KK issues.  I woke up this morning to a very honest PM from LCF and in this PM there were the words that clicked with me…it reminded me of why I feel so strongly about this whole KK drama.

I did not do KK for a week, a month ..I started KK before even the fraud with WW was announced.  I sat in threads and wanted to be just like Heidi.  I wanted to look like the lady in the red dress.  So much so I allowed myself to FOOL myself.  I see the pictures that Heidi used and I think I am not as upset with her and I am myself.  How in the world did I allow myself to LIE daily that all the anti KK people just wanted to hurt Heidi.  Am I one of those people now…maybe…did I join this to hurt Heidi?  NO.  But I find myself very angry with her daily.  When in truth it is myself that I am mad with.  I feel like in some ways..I sold my soul to get thin.  Was it with it?  Well I look in the mirror and some days I see one person and feel like another. 

I am not backing down from my issues with KK.  I am not going to say that everything I do is handled perfect.  I never said I was perfect.  I am just one small person in a big fight to make sure the truth comes out and no one else gets hurt or worse.

 I have taken more from Heidi and her crew then many of you know….but one day soon…it will all become more clear. I think those who come over and fight her battles for her…are just doing what they think they need to do.  Just as I did when I stayed for so long.  I seem to recall that I spent some time being asked some hard questions when I was at KK.  Now that I am gone..I still have to answer some hard questions.

I have never once spoken about Heidi and her hair or clothes or face or size or anything else.  I have spoken about her fraud and her morals.  Anyone who knows me..knows I am not a mean spiteful person.  I have wanted to get to goal for years…and this year was the year…and yet today I weighed even further away from goal.  I placed a pic of myself and Heidi in my blog.  I posted about my lack of getting to goal .  I never said haha look at me.  In fact I said just the opposite. I wanted Heidi to show how far she had come and that it was okay to not be at goal..just to keep working toward it.  Is that the whole truth?  Umm…no.  I also wanted to see a updated picture.  There..I said it.  I bet many of us want to.

I did not humiliate Heidi.  I did not slap her when she was down.  I did not call her out and everyone else that has not reached Goal.  Once again I can not seem to get to goal.  And I find offense that my blog was a slap in everyone’s face that has not reached goal.  Plus…today I am beginning to think getting to goal is only half the battle.

I have shaken the hurt and anger off and today I am going to work on my OTHER goal.  I am going to work on picking a flower.  Because no matter how much I bang my head against the wall..I know some listen and they leave.  That is why this is so worth it for ME.