Today has been a very long day . I spent all day dealing with some medical issues for my daughter. Imagine my surprise to come home and see so many e-mails and blog comments. It makes all of this so worth it. Thank You all for reading my blog and taking time to comment. I hope I can help in some small way in such a big battle. I thought this morning about what I had named my blog “picking flowers”. I love that there is a place for everyone in this fight to truth and health and common sense. Some are best at finding weeds, some pick the weeds, and my goal this week is like I said…to pick flowers. The flowers are the ones left at Kimkins that deep down are wanting a way out. And know what….it is working. I had three e-mails from ladies who are planning and have left Kimkins. You know who you are. But what you may not know….I am so excited for you. I know how hard it is to take that step. And you are stronger then me..you left on your own. I also wanted you to know I am here for all of you. I may not have all the answers..heck I seem to have no answers for myself some days…but I will listen and we can figure it out together. One thing we need to all be reminded of…we are not alone…there are many who have gone before us. And after talking with them….I know they want to help each of us.
Heather….I hope you do not mind me sharing this…but I think it shows just how special it is that you were willing to share your story with those who read my blog.
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Good Morning….On a better note, I have lost 4 more lbs…doing K/E. I have been under 600 calories each day! I am very snatty though. Very Very nausea! I hope everyone is well. Im doing K/E all the way to Onederland~!
Okay Im still having alot of guilt and this is ridiculous already! Ive been back on track now two days and you would think I would get over it, huh? I will certainly think twice again before cheating. Did I say it was worth it? Not sure yet. Something so small really worries me because how will I ever be able to maintain? I am freaking out a bit , I just enjoy food so much that I cant imagine never ever being able to have carbs again. I will have to work on a plan because I enjoyed eating on Friday, Yes I said It, I ENJOYED the food. It was so damn good.It was kinda planned cheat if there is one. SO knowing that I even feel worse that I planned it. I wanted to wait until after my last docs appt so I didnt have to weigh in. Smart huh? SO then I did it………I hate this guilt feeling.
It is making me annalize how much I am addicted to carbs and how I will never be able to handle eating them later on. I thought about the food in my fridge and pantry all day yesterday, almost convincing myself to cheat some more!!!!! Sick, I know. Its just me and my relationship with food.
I wanted to fess up because even though Im on the cover page and everyone thinks it happened so easy for me, I want people to know that its not been easy for me, and I struggle with my food addiction every day. I am human and I have cheated. And I will probably have more cheats. I cant predict my eating habits, but I can try to control them.
I feel so much better knowing that I am not hiding and sharing with you that I am who I am and I too need support.